Looks picture perfect, doesn't it? I smiled as I uploaded these to facebook last night, and thought to myself, man I love pictures.
They capture what I want them to capture. The fun, the smiles, just the right lighting to flatter (because of course I deleted the others.) What I'm left with is what I want to remember. Because truthfully, there's parts I'd like to forget. Like...
The huge ordeal it was just to get everyone going that morning. The whining about where we were going, and what we were doing, and how long it would take to get there...and of course they're hungry, because they're always hungry. The game, between brothers in the back seat of the van, called Don't Flinch. It's all fun and games till one really doesn't flinch and technically wins, the lucky winner ends up with a fist in his eye because the other brother thought he'd flinch. Tears. Spilled pop at the restaurant, crawling under the booth, numerous trips to the bathroom. Oh yeah, I forgot batteries for the camera. Big long *sighs* where Ben and I look at each other and smile (weakly) and try to encourage each other that yes, yes indeed this is family fun. Because, really...at the time, there were lots of moments where it didn't feel like a whole lot of fun.
Did I mention how glad I am that pictures are silent? Because I am.
And the time always comes, like last night...where I sit back, and look at the pictures and smile (an extra big smile when I get to delete the unflattering ones and pretend I never really look like that *cough*) Because all of the craziness really is part of the fun. Not so much at the time, but later. Looking back. But in the moment, I forget that. In the moment, I'm very annoyed that my kids can't get along, and need to be reminded 1,000 times to just STOP PESTERING EACH OTHER, and can't be more grateful for how wonderful their dad and I are for braving the outing in the first place. Am I right?!? Oh, I'm right alright.
Right and ridiculous.
I'm not sure I'll ever get to the point where I enjoy the craziness in the moment. Maybe I will. But I know one thing, I always smile looking back on it.