Sometimes, it's easy for me to forget who I am supposed to be. Sometimes, I come up with my own version of me. Sometimes, I allow myself to perceive what others think I should be. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm doing it...until the feeling of inadequacy is so strong I find myself looking in the mirror wondering where the heck I went?!?
This usually leads me to start praying for specific situations (people) in my life that I feel are causing me this trouble. Because surely my awesome God can change it.
It doesn't work like that.
My awesome God...He seeks to change me. And often times, He uses the most unconventional methods to get my attention.
This past Sunday my hubby had a sermon that God struck my heart with. Hard. Later that day I said to Ben, "I liked your dumb sermon." A huge smile spread across his face, because he knows me...he knew the dumb thrown in there meant I knew God was working on my heart and it was likely going to require change...those Pastors...they get a kick out of God changing people ;)
There's a song called The Middle, by Jimmy Eat World that I recently added to my iPod because it's a peppy little thing. God has hit my heart with the words this week.
Reminding me that I have forgotten who I am supposed to be. I forgot that all I need to be is who He wants, He makes it clear...and His expectations never change. If what He wants from me ends up not being enough for anyone else...that's OK, because it's enough for Him.
Just be yourself, it doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else... If it's good enough for Him, then that's it. Period.
I want His voice to rise so strongly above the rest of the noise in my life.
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Isn't that the truth. We're {enough} for him.
ReplyDeleteThe song goes perfectly with the post.
Here's to a GREAT week being {ourselves}!
I tend to be like you to a point. I try to be what everyone thinks I am.
ReplyDeleteI love your thoughts on God and that He is the one that matters.
Amen! I am having to learn that I can't please everyone and that I can only be me. It is so hard to fall into that slot being a new PW and all...
ReplyDeleteGood post and thanks for the reminder. What He thinks (knows) is all that matters.
ReplyDeleteGreat song. I'm somewhat embarrassed to admit (but not enough to stop posting this) that until now, I wondered why the song talked about riding an elephant. "Middle of it" makes more sense, I must say.
ReplyDeleteGREAT stuff! I love this post. I think it's a constant re-assessing for all of us, to see just who we're conforming to... molding ourselves into.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE your comment to Ben about his sermon. That's awesome. :) So cute.
And I love that song. You're right, it IS a peppy little thing. It'll be a good motivator for that half Mary. :)
This was a good reminder. I like this post very much.
I can see the smile on his face when you called his sermon "dumb" I love ben. Like a cousin in law of course. *smile*
ReplyDeleteHe is such an E_____( insert last name). And that is actually a good thing. *smile*
I totally get the "dumb" comment; that's how Jorge and I communicate, too. I love that your more spiritual posts are not preachy. thank you.
ReplyDeleteThis is a great post - totally spot on. And I love the song too.
ReplyDeleteAmen lady! I'm right with you.
ReplyDeleteThank you dear sister! Dumb sermon was pretty much exactly what I was mumbling under my breath as I left church:-)
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog for a while now and I love it! It brings a smile to my face, many times a LOL and then there are days like today where the truth of the words pierces my heart because it's definitely where I'm at. Thanks for sharing this struggle, I struggle with it also. The song fits perfectly....Thanks for the reminder that We're all good enough for him!
ReplyDeleteLove your blog,
Sonya
so i just realized that half of those words i never knew.. and i wonder what words i was plucking in :)
ReplyDeletegood stuff hon.. humble and real- and His..
Why wasn't I there for that one. Thank you for putting me back into check. I have been myself and the enemy just wants me to feel bad because it doesn't please everyone. I need to work on staying strong in myself for His glory and joy to flow through me. Great song, I like it.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE this song:) I may need to steal this for my FB!
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